It was 13.12.2023 ....I woke up early in the morning because I had to write my assignment .....Usually I wake up around 7'0 clock when i have no where to go about .... When I have to go then i wake up early because its take alot for me to get out from the sleep zone and focus on to the wordly activities. ...But this morning was quite different because I had to rush to deliver my topic on the stage . I was excited so it didn't take me much to zone out from the sleep. Usually Mornings are calm for me ...I am in no speaking zone but that day my mind was constantly speaking inwards about VS Naipaul. A Diasporic Author who is known across the world for his terrific writing in fiction . I had chosen this topic to deliver on the stage while all my mates had chosen common topic among them called Train to Pakistan which i had no idea about ...when i reached there in the hall I realized that only i m delivering topic on diasporic and felt out of blue but composed myself because i knew that i can't change it in a second . Everyone was looking into each other about the chosen topic and discussing about it but here i was clueless about the written paper as I didn't know where i kept it ...I hadn't prepare for it but thank god to my diary and good memory that i read in a second then delivered on the stage as i m firm beleiver that one which you put your mind recently stays for a day atleast ...This was my inner chaos of the day but now i come to the point when i went to the stage . I was called 3 rd last but before that I had asked lots of questions to the other mates so it was pretty obvious that questions will be asked by me as well and I like that thats why I asked lots of questions to the others because these kind of interaction boosts my self confidence ..my beleive in myself. Hence ,These people who all ask some heavy question to me or put me into deadly situation ...I analyze myself ...I think i m way more hard on me than others are hard on me ...I m too critical of myself. Hence ,I indirectly want to know myself from others pereception so that i can know my various self being from the eyes of others. On the stage ,I felt confident but only problem with me is that i can't make strong eye contact with the people as its distracts me from my mind. This is the one drawback of mine i have realized various time being on stage but will have to let it go . Well ,Coming to the topic I delivered my topic in my capacity . While delivering my topic ,I got one feedback from the sir himself that I speak too fast but in my mind i always think that i speak too slow that it won't reach people .I think my voice won't reach to the people . Hence ,I yell beyond my capacity ...but still many told me that your yelling is not that loud ...I m like what to do ..That was a chaos on that day ....The funny thing is that I narrated entire story of VS Naipaul but when one of the girl asked me about his full name I couldn't answer that was so silly of me actually his name is too big to remember and the pronuncaition is difficult for me ....Like the way I can sing entire carrier of KK but still don't know his name but i find it amusing story to tell to the people .Sometimes I feel that its ok to make silly mistake thats a goofy part of you which adds some funkiness to your personality...anyway ,I didn't do it deliberately but when its happens in a situation i try to take it on positive light.All these small moments adds story to my life which gives my writing pen a chance to write something when i go out of the idea . Atlast ,I would like to mention all the people in the picture above to add such fun to that day . Special thanks to our prof.CK Mishra Sir who has always been very encouraging to all of us and behaving so friendly nd having no fuss about any queries we ask for . In the last lines ,I would like to say I will always remember the lines that you are good orator while i was leaving the stage ...that was encouraging for me . For all those wonder ful memories above and beyond written memories .... Thank you all those people as I beleive with everyone you have some kind of memory be it friendly ,professional ,personal or just as strangers first interaction but memory that means to me . Its a WRAP.
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